it is raining wildly and i just finished watching Before Sunset for fourth time or something like that. it is a lovely movie. I think the first time i watched it was when i was in class ten or eleven. And i remember thinking that Celine is me...she thought like me (minus all the wise stuffs). I felt close to the character (still now, i aspire to play guitar some day and know all about music) and I love conversations. I love how time becomes so insignificant when conversations start to be how you measure the length of whatever is happening instead of minutes or hours.

And that was also when I began saying Ethan Hawke is my favorite hero. Well, I also thought no one would ever think about Ethan Hawke and I could be the only person in this world, or at least in Nepal to love Ethan Hawke. I dont really know if that is true.

And I also loved Before Sunset because I knew then that no one else had seen it. What an illusion! Later I came to find some people who had seen it and I think I can relate to those people who have seen it. For me, it is basically the only criteria for judging people: whether they have seen it or not. I usually end up with people who have seen it though.

And here and now, I get suggestions from people to watch that movie and then realize, there is someone common between this person and me...but being who I am, I would never suggest anyone to see the movie, because I almost want to own it. I want no one else to experience what I experienced while watching the movie.

Conversations.

Once this guy who liked me, we had these 'conversations' and I mentioned that there is this movie called Before Sunset and I have been trying to get it but I cant find it anywhere in Kathmandu. And somehow the guy got hold of it and gifted it to me. He was like a fan of the movie or something after watching it. I dont know what he thought. Well, I think I have lost that copy and I think I will never go search for it. I believe that too much of something will ruin it and I particularly dont believe in physical ownership of something that I love after that.

Well.

This is all.