why,these aren't really beautiful emotions
because beauty, as they say, is relative;
these are emotions that can no longer be contained
that can no longer be captured
that can no longer be
these aren't emotions that you would wear on your sleeves
these are rusted drops of smiles
the yellow of the mustard field
and the violet of his voice

these are emotions
of a schizophrenic
who loves the duality
and the null
of being
and becoming

are they soulful you say,
not ask
because ask is too demanding
you still want to maintain the distance
are they soulful you repeat,
not reason
because reason is too scary

but these aren't streams
of consciousness

these are broken shards
of the green heart

these aren't really soulful
if you are looking for something deep
go away
into the ocean
these aren't really soulful
if you are looking for something contemplative

these are soulful
because
these are souls
breaking down every time

like
drops
of
feathers
that
flutter
into
the
golden
sun

into the bright
and into the dark
into the yin
and into the yang

these aren't really beautiful emotions