do you believe in love?

we live in such a rationalized world that words like love and destiny and soul all sound so fake. i would like to believe otherwise. i would like to fall in love, i would like to believe in destiny and i would certainly like to look into someone's soul and say...see, i get you.

we live in such a rushed world that words like affection and sincerity and determination all sound so fake. i would like to show affection to someone, i would like to believe that someone is sincere to me and i would certainly like to be determined about at least something in this world.

ah, we live in such a rationalized and rushed world. there is hardly anything that i can put my faith in.

of all the things, i would desperately want to believe in love. i would. if someone were to right now tell me that he loved me. just loved me. seriously, just loved me, i would believe him. but that is not how this world works anymore. if someone says he loves me, i will think and think and think and think and fret and question and doubt and question and ask someone for help and re read the emails, re read my thoughts, try to re read his thoughts...so much of pain. so much of distrust. so much of lies. so much of so much!

of all the things, i would desperately want to believe in destiny. i do not know why. i think i used to believe in destiny. i did. i used to believe in signs, i used to believe in secret codes. but after a while, there were just too many signs and too many secret codes. i did not know which one to believe and which one to doubt.

of all the things, i would desperately want to believe in soul. if only i could believe in soul...then i would be able to be sure that there is this possibility of looking through someone's soul and see through it. if there were such a thing as soul, then there would be such a thing called soulmate and if there were such a thing as soulmate, then i would be able to believe in destiny and if i were to be able to believe in destiny, i would be able to finally believe in love!

can you imagine that?

I would be able to believe in love!!!