i almost dared to smile

i forgot to brush my teeth today.
it is not the first time.
i must admit this is not the first time i have not wanted to brush my teeth...but forgetting it just reminded where my mental state is right now.
it is boring.
there is not much going on in there...of course, except hygiene...which is...em..is important...i guess...otherwise no one would want to see me smile...except...i am not a big fan of my smile either....so i really dont have anything to lose.
but yes, the point is i FORGOT to brush my teeth.
the first thing you do when you wake up-go to the loo, look at the mirror...that is only if you are not hung over...and then wash your face, and look for that white, cementy paste which you force inside your mouth.
i hate the after taste of toothpaste. i loathe it. yes.
so, i look at the mirror...with my puffy, black under-circles forming their own sense of carnival and stare for a while.

when i used to be 14-16ish, i used to give out speeches...that just tells you how vain i am...but that definitely has helped me with my presentation skills...except limiting it to the mirror only...

so i used to give out speeches, meaning...i used to be fresh enough when i woke up to actually think of a speech and speak it out.
now i am not.

i stare at myself...wondering why i did not sleep early last night...did not achieve much even awake...with all the pending assignments.

i stare at myself...and then i splash some water...some i emphasize...with all the water scarcity going on.

and then i look at the comb lying there, with strands of hair left from the previous user, i stare at the comb and think for a while: should i comb my hair or not.

i decide not to.

i splash some more water.

and then i walk out of the loo.

this is how i forgot to brush my teeth today.
and right now, as i write down this confession, with my classmates doing their chores on their computer, i actually feel a little bit proud of myself. they did not notice....i was able to sneak into a fine morning class with unbrushed teeth.

i almost dared to smile.
:D